When you get into law school, from the very first day of orientation, there's one trait they tell you over and over to avoid developing at all costs. They say that law school brings out the leftover middle school child in everyone. At the end of the day, they warned, we were just going to want to fit in. We were going to want to make friends and do what everyone else was doing for fear of being left out. I scoffed because, well, that was what everyone else was doing, but in reality, I knew that I was going to fall into that trap. Because that's always been me.
I don't know if I was that way all along or if some missteps kind of formed these habits but I am constantly comparing myself to other people. I'm always feeling left out. I want to know what everyone else is doing so that I can be there with them. I don't want to be the one who doesn't get the joke or didn't get invited to the party. And that just doesn't work. It is exhausting to be like this. The truth is, I think, that no one is going to feel like they belong everywhere, all the time. Sometimes we're going to feel like the black sheep. Just because one place isn't for us doesn't mean the world isn't for us.
So this will be my project until 2013. And, because it's what I do, I've pulled up some inspirational quotes courtesy of Pinterest.